July 2011

Second Breath

Yesterday, I woke up feeling the inside of my lip with my tongue. I had bitten the area while eating steak with my parents on Sunday, but yesterday, I realized that I actually have a cold sore there. I examined it in the mirror, determined there was nothing more I could do about it, and […] Read more

There and Back Again: Home Grown

They’ve been writing sestinas all month over at Tweetspeak Poetry. Maybe you remember them from literature class. Sestinas are those 39-line poems with all the structure and form of a contract, but with the rhythm and soul of a conversation. That’s why I wrote one today, to be part of the conversation. Tweekspeak Poetry and […] Read more

Drenched in a Metaphor

I found a metaphor growing in my garden over the weekend. It’s been hot and dry here. Really hot and dry. And though I’ve tried, I haven’t been able to keep up with the watering. About Thursday last week, I noticed my potted pansies were just webs of tangled tan stems, so I basically gave […] Read more

The Next Thing

Yesterday, after my PET scan, I did a little sigh of relief, telling my friend Kathy who took me, “Well, now I can do the next thing.” Because in the days following a cancer diagnosis, trying to do much more than the next thing can really undo a person. So, I went to work. Then […] Read more

A Flood of Encouragement

I may have cried a river of tears, but you have flooded me with encouragement, prayer, and compassion. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I feel loved, supported, and carried by you, and I feel protected by Jesus. “Because of the devastation of the afflicted, because of the groaning of the needy, Now I will […] Read more

A River of Tears

As far as days go, this has not been a good one. Around 10:30 this morning, I received word that my cancer has returned. From every indication, the cancer is just in one 2-cm lymph node somewhere between my belly button and pelvic bone. If that is the case, if the cancer is limited to […] Read more

Art: The Language of the Soul

It was a tough weekend. After a few weeks of not feeling quite right and finally convincing myself to call the doctor, the results of an initial test were not quite conclusive. So, they scheduled additional tests on Monday. In the meantime, an ongoing infection landed me in the ER Friday night, and now I […] Read more

Being Heard

Sometimes, when I have an idea or a complaint, all I want is to be heard. Recently, I wrote a letter to the Mayor’s office asking that they consider adding sidewalks to the street I live on in conjunction with a city-wide push to make the community more pedestrian friendly. I poured my heart into […] Read more

There and Back Again: Stuck

Last night, I got stuck. There were no mud puddles or snow drifts involved; I wasn’t knee deep in quick sand or trapped between a rock and a hard place. I was just walking through the grocery store when my thoughts jammed tight and wouldn’t let me go. “I’m doomed,” I thought from somewhere deep […] Read more