Today, I woke up after a restless night’s sleep. My body ached, and my stomach seemed upset over all of yesterday’s protein. I received three minutes of a brand new batch of radioactive material, and when I came home with a fever, I learned that tomorrow, if my white blood count is low, it may be back to the hospital for me. Today, cancer was again a reality.
But some unexpected parts of my life have taken on new significance. I don’t dread work — even when I’m not feeling my best, I feel called to go to the computer and produce and create. I crave beauty and have enjoyed looking at photographs and catalogs. I also have the urge to paint and write, which will hopefully soon be matched with the energy to do so.
And something as silly as my neighborhood Christmas light contest became my deepest desire. I mentioned in passing this rather odd goal, and a friend recruited the youth group in my church to come and deck my house out with all the lights they can find this Saturday (I’ll let you know in December if I win.)
I also realized that Advent is just around the corner. I love Advent, and for the past few years have taken great pains to observe and write about this tradition. I hope you’ll stop by here often for some thoughts on the anticipation of the Christmas season as Advent approaches. I feel a new sense of expectation this year.