I miss my hair.
It’s not just that my head is cold or my scalp is itchy. I miss the way my hair felt laying on the pillow. I miss brushing it and putting it in a pony tail. I even miss the funny way it would stick up in the back after a night’s sleep.
With hair, I could take on a different look each day. People knew if I got up late or didn’t have time to shower based on the condition of my hair. My boss could tell if I had plans after work based on how primped it was. Some days I wished it would all fall out. Now that it has, I miss it.
Losing my hair is not the only thing I struggle with physically right now. But it is one of the biggest reminders each day that my body is fragile. Just like everyone else’s body, mine is amazingly resilient and created with so much intricacy. But for all its wonder, it’s still wasting away.
With these thoughts fresh in my mind, I heard an important verse from Philippians on Sunday with a new urgency. Even though this body is wasting away, decay is not the final word for it.
“But there’s far more to life for us. We’re citizens of high heaven! We’re waiting the arrival of the Savior, the Master, Jesus Christ, who will transform our earthy bodies into glorious bodies like his own. He’ll make us beautiful and whole with the same powerful skill by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around him.” -Philippians 3:20-21 from The Message
As I heard this verse , I suddenly realized that resurrection is not just an Easter message, it’s also an Advent one. When we wait for Jesus’ return, we are waiting for life with him in a transformed body. And right now, I’m just imaging spending glory with a head full of hair.
By the way, tomorrow is my last radiation treatment.
hi there, just checkin in to say hey and i love you!
Charitable Charity.
This is slightly (almost completely) random…
You share yourself with us. You share your pain. You share your joys. you share your big victories and your little ones. You share what you think when you look in the mirror and gasp, “Oh God, what’s happening to me?!” You share what you think thirty minutes and three days removed from the shocking mirror episode. You share what God whispers to you in the chemo chair. What He whispers to you from the sick bed.
What He whispers to you from His manger bed.
You are so charitable. You share what He’s giving you with all of us.
yea for the last day of radiation! hope that you are feeling well this week and are encouraged.
Charity
Glad to hear that you’re done with radiation. I love what you said about decay not having the last word.
Thanks for sharing with us all your struggles and challenges from a God centered perspective.
What a beautiful verse. Especially in light of how you’ve been feeling. As I said to your comment over on Seedlings, I was quite moved by those feelings of being ugly. To think of Christ born in you again this Christmas, a beautiful birth, that really is something.
Sorry I got here late and missed knowing you were going for radiation. Pre-Christmas errands and so forth are keeping me busier than usual.
Love…
My prayer for you today will be phrased much like the Gyrovague’s comment.
HOOOOORAYYYYY on the last radiation treatment!!! Yay!!
I so got everything you were saying about having hair. I, too, have a totally different (and obvious!) look if I woke up late and couldn’t shower before work/school. Since mine is curly, curly, curly, it’s totally mashed up and messy in the morning, with no help for it at all. On those days, my hair always goes up on top of my head. 🙂
Oh, and when I go to bed with my hair up on top of my head, I, too, wake up with it sticking up all over in back. 🙂
And right now, I’m just imaging spending glory with a head full of hair.
I hope for that every day… The thought of a full head of curly hair in heaven is good for me!
congratulations on the last radiation. May it kill every last cancer cell and post a warning message in your body “Do not come back for fear of death”
I should say AND as you say…..
Charity,
Good to hear that this round of radiation is almost over for you.
I used to have wavy, curly, thick hair, once upon a time. I’ve lost so much of it, and it’s thinned out so much as well, that I shave it very short, maybe once a week or every other week.
Funny that you’re one of those ladies who changes her hair alot. Quite alright.
I guess you miss your hair much more than I do mine, since you have a good amount of it. Hopefully it will come back soon, or as you say- it certainly will be back in its glory in glory.
by the way…i am planning on a trip from this friday through next friday. the 22nd will be the day i plan to check back in on blogs.
God willing.
Love to you,
n.
here i am, again, today! glad to see a new post from you, too. as i was reading i could not relate to everything however, you make it so i can realte to some of what you are going through. being 52 does not come with out some loss, so i can relate to some of it. and knowing that my body is fragile and who knows what it will go through before i die made me really want to get to the verse that you wrote…but i hung for a little while on “decay is not the final word…” and felt some comfort and reasurance there. i am glad to be reminded that God is going to put everything as it should be.
and the last treatment, tomorrow. i will pray that God will be right with you, giving you what you need.